Let's Talk TTC For A Sec

Me and my reproductive parts are about to have a fight. Seriously! The short version if you are a chart reader. Didn't temp, opk, nothing!

The long version. CD32 I had some dark brown spotting. I'm like "Oh, hi AF." Not that simple. It disappeared. Fast forward to CD36. I sit on the toilet and before I peed, I felt a gooey sensation. I did a cm check and there was A LOT of it. I though it was clear at first, but when I wiped it on toilet paper it was liiiiight brown/tan. Then poof, that's gone. I have tested (I think it was CD 33?) and BFN. So frustrated.

CD Almost 1

I had a teeeeeny bit of brown spotting today, then poof! Gone. /sigh. IDK why my body has to beat around the dang bush. Gah. Just do it already. I had no high hopes for this cycle, so I'm not all that busted up about it. Just get on with it and get it over with!

I can totally do this

I need to figure out some things I can do at home to get a more all over workout. I know walking is good but it's not working all of my muscles or attacking all of the fat. Like this spare tire around my waist - yuck! So let's talk about my small victories:

1. No soda. None. EVER.
2. Water water water. And omg I pee all the time haha.
3. Salad! Loving it. Being cautious with dressings.
4. Yogurt. Never been a yogurt eater but I like it as a healthy snack :)
5. So this week I have walked over 5 miles. YEAH. That's pretty good for me. Next week will be even more.
6. Obviously.... -2 pounds. Yeah I know, Monday is weigh in day but I couldn't resist. :P

Still have to work out today, but I am feeling good about what I've done this week.

Two Down

Down two pounds so far. Couldn't resist weighing hehehe. Oh, and I got a bike today! Hooray!!! Tomorrow I bike!!

Technology for Fat Folks

So I ended up walking twice yesterday for a total of almost 3 miles, which made today HARD but I pushed through for 1.2 miles. It's kinda nice walking with DH ♥ I have an app that keeps track of every single detail. It follows me on like a Google map, shows # of steps, how many MPH I'm walking and in how many minutes. It play my mp3s too :o) And it also has a section for food! It allows me to figure out exactly how many calories I'm eating. I just love it. It's called Noom. Here's some screenshots. I HIGHLY recommend this! Oh, and it's fuh-reeeee!

Feeling it

I think I like this! Last time when I tried to lose weight it was winter and I didn't exercise much at all. Today Adam and I walked 1 . 2 miles! :) I was a little sore from the C25K yesterday but I made it. Still eating good, although I'm not sure about the Caveman diet thing but I'm definitely making a lot of changes. Mondays are weigh-ins! Oh and I added a cute ticker over there at the top right.

Week One: {day one}

Well it sucked. Not gonna lie. Today i had lots of water, apple, nuts, dinner at mexican and light yogurt for snack. The food was easy, the exercising is what sucked, but i made it. My starting weight is .... 197.

It's Time

I know I've said it before but I REALLY mean it this time. I need to will lose weight. I haven't said this to anyone other than Adam, but I've been having some self esteem issues. I'm really not the type to feel that way and I'm not sure where it's coming from. I guess infertility and the feelings of being a failure (or whatever you want to call it) spill over into other areas. Anyway, it could definitely improve my chances of conceiving, so why haven't I already done it. Well, one - I'm lazy. And two - I love food. A friend from my TTC forum posted a link to "The Caveman Diet" and I bookmarked it. I thought it was really interesting and something I should try. I've got the C25K app downloaded to my phone.  Got some 4 legged companions ready and willing to come for a walk with me. So, I'm thinking I'll start fresh on Monday and give it my all. I'll post daily so I can hold myself accountable.

Off The Hook

That's what I'm calling my little crocheting enterprise.

Off The Hook on Facebook

Tantrum

Life isn't FAIR. Yeah I know this. It still sucks.

I'm sad and mad for me and Adam - but not just for us. I've met many online friends, extraordinary women, who want nothing more than to hold a baby in their arms. But it just won't happen. Some have never been pregnant. Some have had the joy of new pregnancy ripped from them by miscarriage. One had her heart completely broken when her baby was taken by SIDS.

I look around and I just shake my head. Seeing children who aren't being taken care of. Children who don't know they are loved. All these women who would love just the chance to have what so many take for granted or feel burdened by. I just don't get why it's this way. Why can't infertility go to someone who really doesn't want kids?

Boredom and Rambling + New Look

Well, it's 12am and I am restless. Bored, yet I can't find anything that interests me. I redid my blog tho..that took like 25 minutes. (note to self: make new signature)

Let's see...updates:

• River: Crested and going down YAY!
• TTC: Lost. It's CD21...for real??????!
• Photography: That dance was INSANE and I'm coming away with like a thousand bucks. And a MAJOR headache.
• DH on the jobfront: AWESOME. He got a job making almost $4 more than he was and we'll be able to get those coveted BENEFITS!!
• Me on the jobfront: looking and wanting but no takers. Boo.