CD1

Not sad. At least she's on time. Hope you all had a a Merry Christmas. I sure did! Here's a few pics!

Me and my niece Savannah trying to figure out who's double chin is bigger :P

Adam's family

Neat photo block Adam's oldest sister made for us

Christmas!

Savannah in all her cute glory

My brownies! Recipe from http://www.bakerella.com

Me and my SIL Shonda

Me and the hubs. I hate getting my picture taken :/

Confessional

Forgive me TTCers, for I have sinned.
I only half-heartedly TTCed this month. With good reason I assure you. We have been really struggling financially - REALLY struggling. Here's the story:

Back in July, we moved in with MIL and FIL, because she asked us to. FIL is terminal and wheelchair bound, having extra people here ensures that he has someone here at least most of the time. He can do most things for himself, it's his overall physical condition that is worrisome. Anyway, in August I was due back to school and DH was working. We were buying a truck that was in his brother's name. Originally, BIL came to us because he had 2 vehicles and he could not afford them both. We took the car, and after a year he wanted to trade...and well DH wanted a truck so we did. My second week of school, we were at home one night and noticed a vehicle outside. It was a towtruck. Uh huh. BIL screwed us over. Towtruck Guy says it's $1400 behind. And it was behind $1400 before he traded us. He knowingly did that. I'm still super mad. So now we have no car at all.

 Not long after that, DH is contacted by the local Warmart and is offered a supervisory job. He was the assistant manager at Sonic at the time. We talked it over and felt that Walmart had more advancement opportunities and he took the job. So, on his first night to work for Walmart, he shows up and the told him he can't work there, something about his application. Well, according to the manager his "application wasn't correct". I am thinking his Sonic boss had something to do with that. Oh and the reason I think that is because right before DH took the Walmart job, his boss had him working with some new guy and then after DH left some coworkers told him that the boss was leaving and the new guys was going to be manager. That was supposed to be  DH. He devoted 10 freaking years to that place, and was promised it by his boss. So, yeah I think he did it. Who can trust him? OK so now, no car and no income. GREAT. Well, I do still have my photography but it's not steady. Ok, so yeah it's been crazy. I decided not to take my Metformin this cycle. We couldn't afford to splurge on extra food and TTC supplies. And if we can't afford that...we have no business TTC.

I'm happy to report DH just started a new job, and the best part is...it's a block away! This makes me sooooo happy. It's hard to find a job where we live unless you travel...and well, it's kind of hard without a car. So, I'm hoping to be fully back in the TTC game in January! C'mon BFP :)

Busy and Death

So, I have been so busy lately. And getting busier. I'll be glad when Christmas is over lol. I get paranoid my prints won't be in on time. Tomorrow is CD9 (I think?) So my monitor may start asking for sticks (I think...) I'm pretty scatterbrained.

And ok, this is awkward but if you haven't read some of my posts then I should tell you I was not raised by my mom or my dad. While my mom was in my life at least my biological father was not. I think I have maybe seen him twice in my life and it wasn't nice or happy or anything resembling a Lifetime movie. Anyway, I got word today that he died yesterday. I'm not sure what I feel. Mostly, I feel nothing. He is more a stranger than a relative and I guess it's hard to miss something you never had... I guess I feel kind of cold for not feeling...affected?..or whatever you would call it, but I just don't.

AF, OPKs and Santa

AF is still visiting for the holidays. :( My OPKs should be in today. And I'm sot of dreading sort of looking forward to the weekend. The town has a Enchanted Christmas Festival and I'm taking Pictures with Santa. Then I have a couple shoots Sunday so I won't be around much.

Blah

It's technically cycle day 3. Blahhhhhhh

BFmaybe?

I dunno. Second morning pee...what do you think? (You should be able to click and make them bigger)

 

It's ok if you think I'm nuts, so does the hubby. :)

It's been crazy here

I guess I have a lot to update on. My doc appointment yesterday went good. I took a printout of this cycle and last cycle's chart and all she could say was "Wow". I told her about my sore and swollen nipples and she said "We need to have you pee in a cup!" LOL I had to remind her I was only 9dpo. She said I was right it was probably too early, and to test after Thanksgiving.

My father-in-law had a light stroke last night. He's terminally ill, and has been in bad shape for awhile now. He's in the hospital and will undergo rehab.

Thanksgiving was so yummy. I'm so so so stuffed right now. We had a freaking tornado warning today! The day started off at like 70* and dropped into the 40's. Then the warning happened and about 10pm it was sleeting. WTH

How bout a list of symptoms?

• wicked bad constipation and very un-fun BMs when they do happen
• swollen, sensitive, sore nipples and overall sore boobs
• a few cramps here and there

Tomorrow is 11dpo. We are nearing the finish line for this cycle. 

OPK?

I went to visit my HPT's in my stash box. Ya know, just seeing what they were up to. And there was an OPK floating around and I was SURE I was out! So, yeah without further ado, my OPK:

(I flipped in backwards because I have to hold it in my left hand because my camera is ginormous)

I want to test SO BAD. I am really trying to hold out til Wednesday. My temp dipped a little today but it's still nice and high. If I ever though my boobs were sore before, I was sadly mistaken. Ow! I'm a little crampy off and on. I really can't stand this wait. To fill in the rest of this post (because I'm turning pretty whiny) here's my chart.

I'm so irritable today

Even though my chart looks great, I can't shake this bad mood. MIL is really rubbing me the wrong way today - I want to strangle her, even though most of the things irritating me have nothing to do with me directly. DH and I went for a walk that ended prematurely. I snapped at him about something that wasn't his fault (MIL related). I dunno I just feel like punching something or crying maybe. Ugh!

2ww is driving me insane

Seriously...I can't take it! I'm 5dpo and 4 days until my doctor appointment. I really doubt I get a BFP there. The appointment is at 1pm so definitely NOT FMU. So, Thanksgiving Day is 10dpo. I'm hoping for a BFP that day. It would be so cool to get a BFP on Thanksgiving...I would definitely be thankful. But, really..I'll take a BFP any day of the year, so come on!

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 5: Favorite Quote

This one is easy: Some see a hopeless end, while others see an endless hope.

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 4: Favorite Book

I definitely say The Stand by Stephen King is the best book I've ever read, and I have read my share. It has such a good story and a super long movie that's also really good.

I also loved the Twilight books, The Harry Potters, the 13-book Left Behind Series, The Women's Murder Club series by James Patterson, a few by Jodi Picoult! I used to read all the time...I should get back into it.

Crosshairs!

My temp is on the rise people! I got bummed when I looked at the thermometer though. I guess I have a habit of looking straight to the last digit, so I saw .1. Then, I saw 98!! :)

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 3: Favorite TV show

Without a doubt, Grey's Anatomy. I'm obsessed!!
Adam and I watch some together like Bones, Weeds, The O.C. (when it was on, but we loved it!)

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 2: Favorite Movie

I have 3 that come to mind immediately: Wedding Crashers, Knocked Up and The Ugly Truth. I like a good RomCom, what can I say?

Now we wait

 

Eeek! The BD is done for this cycle, and I hope we get good results...we sure tried hard! Hehehe.  I have 5 ICs and I'm going to try to be a really good girl and not test until at least 10dpo. I can't wait to see those pretty red crosshairs and know that they are real and I ovulated. That doctor's appointment has already brought me so far and I've made more progress in the last few weeks than I have in years, both in my cycle and in weight loss. I really think the weight loss was a big factor in ovulating this cycle. This is going to be a long 2 weeks!

30 Day Blog Journal: Day 1: Favorite Song

Oh, dear. That is so hard! I looooove music. I thank God that most of you never pass me driving because I'm pretty sure I put on a good show singing in the car. How about a few faves? I'll even link them to the videos :)
     
                     All-Time 

1. November Rain - Guns N' Roses
2. Remember When - Alan Jackson
3. Still - Brian Mcknight
4. Never Gonna Be Alone - Nickelback

                     Recent

1. Mine - Taylor Swift
2. If You Only Knew - Shinedown
3. Life After You - Daughtry
4. If I Die Young - The Band Perry 
5. just about anything by Nickelback

30 Day Blog Journal

I stole this from my buddy Anne Marie's Blog. Looked fun!


Links to the posts in my "Getting to know me" 30 day blog journal.
Day 1- your favorite song

Day 2- your favorite movie

Day 3- your favorite television program

Day 4- your favorite book

Day 5- your favorite quote

Day 6- 20 of my favorite things

Day 7- a photo that makes you happy

Day 8- a photo that makes you angry/sad

Day 9- a photo you took

Day 10- a photo taken over 10 years ago of you

Day 11- a photo of you recently

Day 12- something you are OCD about

Day 13- a fictional book

Day 14- a non-fictional book

Day 15- your dream house

Day 16- a song that makes you cry (or nearly)

Day 17- an art piece (drawing,sculpture, painting, etc)

Day 18- my wedding/future wedding/past wedding

Day 19- a talent of yours

Day 20- a hobby of yours

Day 21- a recipe

Day 22- a website

Day 23- a youtube video

Day 24- where I live

Day 25- your day, in great detail

Day 26- your week, in great detail

Day 27- my worst habit

Day 28- whats in my handbag/purse

Day 29- hopes,dreams and plans for the next 365 days

Day 30- a dream for the future

Fertility Friend is in for a shock

Mwahahaha

 

I got the EGG!!!!!!!

OMG OMG OMG!

That's all I can really say about that!

Take THAT PCOS!

Introducing, for the first time ever: Angela's Positive OPK.

I really can't believe it. Complete and total shock. I owe my doctor a great big hug at my appointment on the 24th. The diet and Metformin are magic!

OOOOOOH!

OMG I got a high reading on my monitor, but I must say I love the stick! Never had one that the lines were even close on. This gives me so much hope!

New Look

I was really bored and slightly tired of all the pretty crap. :hehe:

It's going by pretty fast!

I can't believe my doctors appointment is in 11 days. I'm patiently waiting to ovulate. Still sticking to my diet faithfully. (see here) Nothing major to report I guess. :)

Cookies for PCOS

YUMMMMMM these are soooo good. Thank God for Splenda. And don't get a knock off brand like I did at first. You will not eat the cookies lol.

Peanut Butter Cookies

1 c. peanut butter (i used super chunk!)

1 c. Splenda

1 egg

Combine in a bowl and stir til mixed well. Spoon onto cookie sheet. Bake @ 350* til firm.

CD10 and..

I got a high reading on my monitor, which I don't really know what to think about. So I dipped an OPK about 6pm:

Hmmm

And it was all going so smoothly

Until today. Last night, I was hungry and all my good fresh food was either gone or looking a little icky so I ate a sandwich. Woke up this morning to POAS for my CBFM and had to stay in the bathroom a little longer than for just POAS if you get my drift. I felt dead after that and went back to sleep. I still don't feel good. Ugh.