This is not a fairytale. I learned that quite a few months ago. Naively, we went into this thinking "Oh! We want to have a baby now" and expected that it would happen because we wanted it to. And, for some that does work. Not for me - or many others like me. It's hard. It's emotional. It sometimes gets the best of you. So, after over a year of trying to conceive and a PCOS diagnosis, I find myself here - trying to believe.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Waterworld..no really

So, it's flooding here. I think I've mentioned my town is on the banks of the Mississippi. We have been having storms non-stop and now it's flooding. Here is the latest info I have and a pic.

Posting from a friend who was at the City Council meeting - Caruthersville has declared a State of Emergency, the ONLY thing this really means to us right now is that there is a curfew on the Seawall and Levees, if you are caught there after 6 in your vehicle or on foot it is $500 fine and 90 days in jail. There is NO MANDATORY evacuation right now. The City has a working plan in place but the Mayor says now is the time to make sure your fam and possessions are taken care of. Be ready and have a family plan bc if it goes over 48 and there is an evacuation then you will have to leave immediately. Signs around the community as well as local radio stations will keep you updated with the river stages. Listen to your news sources for accurate info. The Mayor stresses to make sure all of your info is correct before you pass anything along. We do not need any incorrect information putting fear in anyone. At current predictions of 48 on May 7th, the wall should hold BUT you need to be ready just in case. They are doing their part, you should be doing yours to take care of your family. Make plans for where you will go and what you will do with your possessions and how you will secure your property. Our officials are doing all that they can to take care of the City, if is our job to take care of our families now instead of waiting until it is to late. In all hopes your preparations will be for nothing. But better a waste than a wish of what you should have done. No word on school yet but should know something soon. The Mayor says ready yourself and pray.

This is a park at the riverfront. If you look on the right you can see a street sign. There are several park benches also that are completely submerged.




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Saturday, April 23, 2011

Happy Accidents

So, the senior pictures I took the other day were for a distant cousin. I know I may have felt a little jaded about her being a teen mommy, when I am not a mommy (and gettin' pretty far from teen there too). But, I am so impressed with her. She was born with a physical handicap (arm) and is doing better than most teens her age who are 'normal' and don't have a baby. She only has to go to school half a day her senior year. She works the other half at a day care. She isn't with the baby's father and she has her own place. Pretty impressive.

I noticed a few days before her shoot that there was a field of white flowers in an empty lot next to the grocery store. It really didn't make sense at all...yet there it was. A happy little accident - this ugly lot had been transformed to this beautiful field of flowers. I HAD to use it.

So, I rounded her and the baby up and off we went. She calls him monkey, so I brought along a sock monkey hat of course!



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Ok so maybe I blogged too soon

About things going good on the job front fro DH. It seems this new boss is also giving him the run around. He's going to a job fair Monday to try to nab a job that pays better and has benefits. It's out of town, so thats going to be a challenge. Blah.]

It's CD 4. We're gonna NTNP this month. Which when you have PCOS really means sitting this month out. I know to really ovulate, I need to take my Met, eat right and exercise a little. It's REALLY hard to do that since we live with DH's parents and my diet food turns up eaten by someone else.It's expensive buying healthy food - AND replacing it!!  DH seems to be on a health kick and maybe I can go along with him and drop a couple pounds. Not likely, since I have a re-addiction to Sour Punch Straws. I discovered this little childhood treasure on a convenience store shelf while paying for gas one day, and I'm itching for my third pack lol.

I'm still busy with photo shoots (when I'm not getting rained out) It seems like when things are slow, it's reeeeeeallly slow and when I'm busy, I'm SUPER busy.

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Sunday, April 17, 2011

One of THOSE days

I have a senior shoot today, a girl...and her 10 month old son..yep, it's gonna be one of those days.

In other news, still no AF. Planning on testing Wednesday if I don't see anything before then. If nothing else, a surefire way to induce AF is to get your hopes up and test, right?

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Thursday, April 14, 2011

Something...anything?

CD38..*looks at watch*..make that 39. Please God I hope this isn't one of those super long cycles. I feel like something is coming though. My boobs are sore and kinda..plump? It could go either way. And seriously just do something already!

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Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Update and a small vent

It's CD37. Blah. I had some EWCM 4/8 and I OPKd. It was pretty dark like it might have been positive the day before or was going to be positive the day after. And I tested with an HPT because...well just because I guess. And I swear there was something there. Original and invert. I dunno. I tested after that and saw something but it was off center. So....that that's what's going on with that.

Things are going good on the job front for DH. Looks like he will be getting a huge promotion by end of summer and we may move to a different state. Eek! As for me, still doing the photography thing when the weather permits. I had a senior session yesterday (i'm coming back to that) and one on the 17th. I've also got a couple maternity sessions and a wedding coming up!

So the senior session from yesterday. Well, let's see it is mid-April in Missouri. It was super windy. Ok, I can't control the weather. I also can't help that you waited until the month before graduation to schedule your son's senior pics. Well, we did do some in the snow in January but she wanted more. Also, her decision. I think the pictures are coming out great considering. Here's a few:




Some she loved, some she had no comment and some...well..
This one I love...just wish the hair wasn't wind blown.
 This one I love, but Perry thinks his eyes are messed up...did you add any color because they do look like they are two   different shades or is it the lighting that's doing it?
 I love the look of the picture but I wish the wind wouldn't have been 90 miles per hour!!!
 I like this one but the background didn't turn out so pretty.
 not to thrilled with this...I would like it better if the background was blurred out.

I'm on the brink here...
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Thursday, April 7, 2011

WTF

On the TTC front: Im CD31 with no ovulation that I know of. I got neither a high nor a peak on my CBFM, but I ran out of sticks pretty early. I was looking through my memory card and found a stick that should have at least been a high reading i would think:

And today I have EWCM. ME!! EWCM! It stretched as far and I could pull apart my finger and thumb. What gives! Oh and if I am just now O'ing - DH is out of town. OF COURSE.

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Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Getting Old

I really hate that I'm getting older and the main reason isn't gray hair or wrinkles...it's that I feel like I spend 75% of my time in the bathroom, thinking about going to the bathroom, or finding a bathroom when I'm not home. Gah, I remember when I was a kid I didn't have to pee for like an hour or two after I woke up. My grandma was amazed by this - I just thought she was weird. Now, I wake up, feel the pain of my full bladder, mentally get it under control and make a mad dash for the potty. /sigh My favorite thing is to be sitting in my recliner, underneath my laptop with 10 million things hooked to it, a dog beside me and have to freaking pee! UGH!! It's just so annoying. So I guess that's my blog today - pee.....


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Monday, April 4, 2011

Cycle #17,834 coming to an end

It's been a month of birthdays. First mine on the 11th, then baby Dyllan was born on the 21st then Adam's was the 22nd. It's been crazy. Baby Dyllan deciding to come a full 9 days before his scheduled C-section delivery had everyone running around like chickens with their heads cut off. (btw that's a horrible saying) I stayed with SIL for many of their first few days home, day and night, taking them to doctors' appointments, etc. She also has an almost 10 year old who I delivered to school and karate lessons. So let's just say between cake, parties, babysitting and being away from DH, I didn't ovulate and even if I did our moments together have been scattered here and there (and when I WAS home I was pooped) so it wouldn't have mattered. Also, wanted to throw this out there, I was taking my Metformin from an old bottle, not super old, a few months. I was wondering if they were old and didn't have any oomph to them? (is that a word? i think so..) I have a new bottle so we'll see I guess. So come on AF, I know you're coming...

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