This is not a fairytale. I learned that quite a few months ago. Naively, we went into this thinking "Oh! We want to have a baby now" and expected that it would happen because we wanted it to. And, for some that does work. Not for me - or many others like me. It's hard. It's emotional. It sometimes gets the best of you. So, after over a year of trying to conceive and a PCOS diagnosis, I find myself here - trying to believe.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Not Prepared For That

So, I have been and will be spending a lot of time working in the ER. Today, I admitted a young girl in tears. She was 17. I'm not allowed to ask her what's wrong. If she wants to tell me of her volition, she can...but I can't ask. I found out later that she was approximately 5-6 weeks pregnant and was bleeding. It seriously broke my heart. I don't know about some infertiles, but I kind of have hard feelings about teenagers who don't really want a baby and get pregnant, and so many of us can't that really do want to.

...But, what about those that really do want that little baby they just found out about? And, then just like that - it's gone.

Sobering. Yes, indeed.

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Sunday, July 24, 2011

Job Update

The job is going good. The last couple of days, I've been in the ER. It's really crazy! Everyone is nice so far. I'm about to start night shift and I'm glad because getting up at 5 was killing me slowly lol. There's really not a whole lot to update, though. Maybe something interesting will happen this week.

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Saturday, July 16, 2011

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Awesome News...finally!

Nope. Not Pregnant. But getting closer to it thanks to...my new JOB! It's part-time clerical at the local hospital but she assured me I would be full-time in no time. And the best part...fully paid insurance! WOOOOOOOT! My friend works there and she said the insurance is amazing. She went to the doc and they ran about $600 worth of tests. And she only paid a $40 co-pay. Ohhhhh, where have you been all my life? So, TTCing will hopefully be hardcore in the near future! YAY!

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Saturday, July 2, 2011

Randoms

Some stuff I'm going to be working on.

  1. Making half-apron for my photography junk while shooting. It is mega annoying when you're trying to shoot and your camera bag is falling off your shoulder. Another photographer posted a pic of herself and mentioned that was a waitress apron she was wearing to hold her lenses and stuff. My immediate thought was - Genius. So, I'm going to crochet myself one with custom pockets.
  2. Make pose blueprints for shoots. This idea came to me while browsing Pinterest. I thought - All these great pose ideas and I forget half of them on shoots. So, my idea is to sketch out blueprints of the pose...stick figures will work and maybe a few keywords on some index cards. I'll go through my stack and handpick some for each shoot.
  3. Reupholster 2 junk items I found. This one scares me most. But I didn't pay for the items so nothing is really lost...except maybe my patience in the end.
  4. 500 Fans Contest This is actually going on right now on my Facebook Fan Page. I have 14 people competing for a chance to win 1/2 off their session fee. It ends tomorrow (7/3/11) at 6pm.
I suddenly got really sleepy thinking about all that. Or maybe it's just an after effect of all the BBQ. DH is going to be gone for at least a few days, so I have some projects to keep me busy.


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