This is not a fairytale. I learned that quite a few months ago. Naively, we went into this thinking "Oh! We want to have a baby now" and expected that it would happen because we wanted it to. And, for some that does work. Not for me - or many others like me. It's hard. It's emotional. It sometimes gets the best of you. So, after over a year of trying to conceive and a PCOS diagnosis, I find myself here - trying to believe.
Dear Griping Moms
I hate you I really do! It makes you seem a little ungrateful of this blessing you have that others work so hard for and pay thousands to have. But you, you want to sleep but instead this incessant little screaming monster is keeping you from it. There are thousands of women who would trade you in a heartbeat. For what comes so easily, naturally and accidentally to you might never come to them. Imagine trying for a year or more and never succeeding. Imagine crying yourself to sleep because you may never be called mommy. Imagine sitting in a doctors office and hearing words that change the life you wanted to have. It just seems so unfair that so many would take what you have and cry tears of joy. We have seen the worst. We have felt the empty void, and know that only a child of our own can fill it. But you get to have it, and complain about it. *sigh* Sometimes, I just don't understand why things happen the way they do.
2 comments:
amen. The world isn't fair. People who don't even want babies get them easily and accidentally, while some of the most deserving, best future mommies have to be patient, some for years, and go through a painful process to make their dreams come true. Some of them never do. It's absolutely unfair!!
It is unfair... I am sorry you are going through this. I am praying that your dreams will come true very soon!
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